A New Idea for a New Year of Life

Well, I've made a decision on the cusp on my 25th year. It's derived mostly of artistic boredom, but a bit of inquisitive intrigue is mixed in as well. I've wanted to try out the 365 Project, but it always seemed a bit tedious and I knew I'd grow tired of it quickly, although artisticly speaking, it would be worth it to improve my skills, ideas, and techniques. So I have decided to try to do an adaptation of this project:

Beginning on the first day of the 25th year of my life, I will take the first self portrait. This will surely be the hardest as it needs to convey what I feel about being alive for a quarter of a century. I don't have fears of growing old... I am simply in awe of how much time thus far that I have been given. I am also ashamed of how little use I have made of that time. Perhaps this project will teach me about myself, will help motivate me to not only figure out what I want in life, but how to attain it when I do figure it out. It must sound silly - taking a picture of yourself to help you understand who and what you are. If I were simply taking a photo of my smiling face I would agree, but my hope is that I will not provide the normal standard self portrait but try to convey a message with each picture. How this will be done I have not decided. I believe I will work on deciding each week and take it from there.

Now to consider the first picture... How exactly do I feel about turning 25? Strangely I feel a bit of nothingness... a bit of hollowness at the idea. I do not feel that I have fullfilled what I should have by this time. I have no delusions about sociollogical goals that should have been obtained by this point - I merely feel that I have not acheived enough of the goals I had when I was younger. Although our goals evolve and change, as mine indeed have, they still stay the same at the heart of them. Perhaps I will make a list of my incomplete goals and begin finding the route to get to them. And perhaps I have just found the first photo....

Stay tuned ;)